First Entry in the Little Koha Gratitude Journal
My first entry in the Little Koha Gratitude Journal didn’t take a lot of thought to be honest. It’s not because I don’t care, in fact, it’s quite the opposite. I care so bloody much about this one that the words just dribbled out of my fingers as I typed!
I’m currently 6 months pregnant with out first baby and overflowing with goodness like a chocolate fondue fountain.
Like so many other couples in New Zealand, this pregnancy didn’t come naturally for us. We had been trying to conceive, or TTC as it is commonly called in the infertility world, for about a year before deciding to investigate further.
After dozens of blood tests, smears, scans, probes, leaving our dignity at the doctors, and emotional breakdowns, I was finally diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).
PCOS is when multiple cysts develop in the ovaries affecting hormones and fertility. About 10% of pre-menopausal women are affected by PCOS but there is no cure – only medication to help minimise the symptoms.
Fortunately for us, we were referred to a specialist who worked his medical magic and, boom, within two months we were pregnant.
Yes we took a ride on an awful emotional rollercoaster, but after having heard of others’ heartbreaking infertility journeys, we now consider ourselves the lucky ones.
However, when you want something so desperately and you finally get it, it takes a long time to feel secure with what you have. For the first couple of months, I would worry about every little change in my body and often expected the worse.
It may sounds cliché but every scan is a blessing, every midwife appointment where we hear the heartbeat is a relief and every week is a milestone to celebrate.
This month, we felt our baby girl kick for the first time and roll around just like her restless mumma, and that is what I am immensely grateful for. Who would have thought the feeling of a little rubber band pinging inside your tummy and up against your ribs would be so satisfying?
Feeling grateful is actually an understatement.
Little Koha is a business built on gratitude – a powerful trait with short and long-term health benefits. At least once a month, this blog will become my personal online Gratitude Journal in the hope it helps others think about what they are grateful for.
We would love to hear your stories, big or small, in the comments below or over on our Facebook Page.